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I know you’re waiting on the big torch bearer update, and it’s coming – I have it half written. But first I need you guys to think really good thoughts for me.
Had my first OBGYN appointment today, at 12 weeks along, and while my worries about finding them curt or dismissive or anything like Dr. Useless turned out to be usual Carol nonsense… something I hadn’t worried enough about happened instead. (See, I’m still convinced that worrying prevents problems, and if I had only worried about this enough, instead of worrying about that, things would have been different.)
They couldn’t find a heart beat on the doppler. The intern tried it, then called in the experienced RN, who had an excellent bedside manner being a combination of both brisk and efficient, but sympathetic and cheerful… and she couldn’t find it either.
She looked at me.
“You’re going to worry about this, aren’t you?”
“No…”
“You’re lying, aren’t you?”
“Through her teeth,” said Perfect Husband, who wasn’t looking relaxed either.
“I’m sure it’s nothing, the baby is really small right now and this happens a lot. But we’re going to get you an early ultrasound, just to put your mind at ease,” she said cheerfully.
So we waited while she argued with an ultrasound clinic over the phone. She came in looking (somehow) annoyed but still cheerful.
“So, I tried but I couldn’t get you in for today. They said they had male rooms, but no female rooms available. I don’t understand why you can’t go into a male room, since it’s the same equipment and it’s only one person at a time, but they got annoyed when I started asking questions, so it’s tomorrow.”
Balancing reassurance and sympathy perfectly (and hey, that’s tough – to dismiss concerns without sounding dismissive? That takes talent.) they told us again and again that this happens all the time, and we promised that we wouldn’t worry about it.
“You’re lying again, aren’t you?”
They’re good.
We know everything will be fine tomorrow. And then we’ll go to the Victory Ceremony and see the Barenaked Ladies! Plus we get to see our baby way earlier than we would have otherwise. So it’s all good.
But… think good thoughts for us anyway, ok?
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Absolutely. Now I know that PH wasn`t using hyperbole when he said tomorrow would be the best or worst day ever! I hope there will be a moment amidst all your celebrating tomorrow when you`ll be able to pop over here and share the good news with all of us.
Big virtual hugs, Carol! Rest assured, I will be thinking of you 🙂
Indeed…sending good thoughts your way!
I’ll be thinking my best and most powerful good thoughts for you, PH and that babby. Remember that at 12 weeks sometimes finding the heartbeat is tricky. Be well. Good luck.
ive been thinking of you guys since last night, i didnt have access to a computer as im traveling and read your post on my phone.
i am keeping my fingers crossed for your little family!
im sure today will be a much better day after all of the extra worrying you’ve done 🙂 seriously though, im sure you are a wreck and i hope your ultrasound isn’t too late in the day.
xoxo
BIG hug from across the pond! thinking of you, hubby and the babby!
Still thinking of you.
Okay, it’s now 21 (almost 22) hours into the tomorrow from your posting. I’ve been thinking about you ever since I read your post this morning and I’m dieing to know what the heck has happened in your ultrasound. Please post asap and let us all know.
Lots of hugs, love and positive thoughts.