This blog is six years old now and I miss it.
I miss writing. I basically haven’t done any in months. During pregnancy my energy levels decreased to the point where I could barely even read at the end of the day. Heck, by the last month before the baby came I was taking NAPS in the afternoons.
I NEVER NAP.
If someone wrote a blurb-like description of me, they would probably include “can’t sleep between the hours of 11 am and 11 pm” (along with “drinks a lot of diet pepsi” and “spends way too much time explaining stuff to people.”)
And this was with my mother in law, and then my own mother, to help out around the house. Even with someone cooking my meals, washing my dishes, and playing with my son, I still couldn’t summon the energy to focus on writing.
Now, I have slightly more energy, and I am burning with a hypothetical desire to write ALL THE THINGS.
I want to write a book on dog training for my dog training business, so that we can be the dog trainers who wrote a book.
I want to finish writing my fiction trilogy that parodies Twilight but with feminism and zombies.
I want to write on this blog and tell you about a zillion things.
I want to do a whole other blog where I do nothing but heavily overthink things.
Do I have the time for any of this? No! Because, baby! And four year old! Even with my mother in law to help, the fact of the matter is that it is very hard to type on a laptop while holding a baby.
I never sit at the desktop computer anymore, because that has become PH’s refuge from all the hustle and bustle in the rest of the house. It’s not like my first mat leave where I was home alone all day at the computer. Now it’s every now and then at the lap top with one hand.
Even when I do get to put the baby down for half an hour or so, I have trouble writing with the knowledge that the baby could wake up and interrupt me at any moment. It’s like falling asleep – you need to feel like you aren’t JUST ABOUT TO BE INTERRUPTED.
But I’m going to try. Because I love writing and I need it. I have so much to say.
But when I get half an hour – which do I write first?