1. What did you do in 2010 that you’d never done before?

Gave birth. Vomited chocolate in a public area and failed to clean it up. Lost a job. Nursed a baby. Carried the Olympic flame. Wet myself in a gas station washroom. Attended a Gold Medal Olympic event.

2. Did you keep your new year’s resolutions, and will you make more for next year?

I didn’t make resolutions last year. I believe my first thought of 2010 was “HOLY SHIT I’M PREGNANT” and my second thought of 2010 was “GODDAMN, NEW YEARS IS BORING WITHOUT CHAMPAGNE.” I will, however, make resolutions for next year.

3. Did anyone close to you give birth?

I’m pretty close to me.

4. Did anyone close to you die?

My Nana died in May.

5. What countries did you visit?

Visited the United States a few times – the trip to New York, drives to Seattle and to Point Roberts.

6. What would you like to have in 2011 that you lacked in 2010?

A million dollars. A pony. Baseboards. A small, lightweight vacuum cleaner. A teleporter.

7. What dates from 2010 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?

Aug 30th – the day Babby was due. Sept 8th – the day Babby was actually born.

8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?

Squeezing something the size of a watermelon out of something the size of a lemon.

9. What was your biggest failure?

My job.

10. Did you suffer illness or injury?

Both ends of the year were bookended by mild colds, but that’s about it. Except for the ripping of flesh and requiring of stitches. The first time I have EVER had stitches.

11. What was the best thing you bought?

I… don’t really know. I don’t buy much. Um… maternity wear?

12. Whose behavior merited celebration?

I’m going to say… my own. Not all the time – certain pregnancy freak-outs come to mind – but I handled the being-laid-off thing in a mature manner and managed not to say anything I regretted later. I also managed to give birth without screaming or being too big of a baby about it.  I’ve also gotten a lot better at managing my anxieties. Some newer friends recently called me “laid back” and I almost laughed in their faces.

13. Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed?

To be frank, my bosses at my old job. I don’t agree with some of the decisions they made, or how they handled certain situations.

14. Where did most of your money go?

Paying off debts of various kinds. Housing levy. Take-out food. Moses baskets and the like.

15. What did you get really excited about?

I… haven’t been really excited about anything in a long time. I was excited about the baby, I guess, but there was so much fear of change that I didn’t really look forward to it.

16. What song will always remind you of 2010?

Hmmm… “The Cave”, “Fix You”, “Grace Kelly”, “Empire State of Mind”.

17. Compared to this time last year, are you:

– Happier or sadder? Happier.

– Thinner or fatter? MUCH fatter.

– Richer or poorer? Poorer. Being on mat leave has cut my income in half.

18. What do you wish you’d done more of?

Laughing. Cleaning. Writing in my diary. Being pampered by Swedish people in bathrobes.

19. What do you wish you’d done less of?

Worrying, farting, gaining weight, being laid off.

20. How did you spend Christmas?

With Perfect Husband’s family on Christmas Eve and with my family Christmas Day.

21. Did you fall in love in 2010?

Yes. Having a new baby is remarkably like falling in romantic love. I’ve never been a love at first sight kind of person, and I didn’t love Babby at first sight, although I did feel protective of him and responsible for him. But every day I fall a little deeper in love with this tiny person who lights up my life with every smile he tosses my way.

22. What was your favorite TV program?

Glee and Canada’s Worst Driver.

23. Do you hate anyone now that you didn’t hate this time last year?

No. Hate is not  something I spend much time indulging in. There are people I am angry with, but I don’t hate them.

24. What was the best book you read?

That’s tough because I mostly just re-read the same books over and over again. So I could tell you that I read To Kill a Mockingbird or Where The Heart Is, or The Golden Compass or The Princess Bride, and any of these would be a good answer. But they aren’t NEW books for me, so I feel that those answers would be cheating. Hmm. Nothing really stands out from the new stuff…

25. What was your greatest musical discovery?

I haven’t really had any.

26. What did you want and get?

A healthy child. My mother’s help in the early weeks of Babby’s life. A gliding rocker.

27. What did you want and not get?

A million dollars. A pony. Baseboards. Creative genius. A lightweight vacuum cleaner. A quick and easy labour. An easy baby.

28. What was your favorite film of this year?

Hmm… I loved Despicable Me and Megamind. Toy Story 3 was cute. How to Train Your Dragon was cute. But the best quality movie I saw was probably The Social Network. And yet, it wouldn’t be one I would re-watch again and again. Haven’t seen Harry Potter yet so I can’t complain about it.

29. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?

I was 28 on the 28th, my champagne birthday, and I couldn’t even drink champagne! I had Perfect Husband throw a bash with all my friends, but it was a slightly awkward affair since I had different groups of friends in one room and some people just didn’t show up so things were kind of lopsided on one end. And I couldn’t ease the awkwardness with alcohol.

30. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?

Being promoted instead of laid off.

31. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2010?

Value village maternity wear.

32. What kept you sane?

Perfect Husband. This blog. My CBT courses. Wellbutrin. Giving birth (oddly – most people get crazier when they have the baby, but I was crazier before I had the baby).

33. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?

…I don’t fancy celebrity figures. I scorn them, for the most part.

Oh, wait, I lied. The Old Spice man, of course.

34. What political issue stirred you the most?

Probably the universal health care thing in the States. I can’t understand what the problem is down there. So many people are afraid that it will wreck their nation, even though every other first world country has a social healthcare system… don’t get me started. I’ll just say this: My prenatal care didn’t cost me anything. My birth didn’t cost me anything. My hospital stay only cost a bit because I chose to stay in a private room (because it was 80% covered by PH’s work benefits), otherwise it would have been free, too. I have seen a psychiatrist multiple times and been through two therapy courses. None of them cost me anything. My son has seen the family doctor multiple times and the pediatrician. Didn’t cost anything.

I like that.

35. Who did you miss?

My friends and family back East.

36. Who was the best new person you met?

I don’t meet new people.

37. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2010.

People will do bad things, and will get away with bad things, and there’s only so much you can do about it. Sometimes the sanest thing you can do is accept that justice will not be done, and move on.

38. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year.

I could be brown
I could be blue
I could be violet sky
I could be hurtful
I could be purple
I could be anything you like
Gotta be green
Gotta be mean
Gotta be everything more
Why don’t you like me?
Why don’t you like me?
Why don’t you walk out the door!

Getting angry doesn’t solve anything

How can I help it
How can I help it
How can I help what you think?
Hello my baby
Hello my baby
Putting my life on the brink
Why don’t you like me
Why don’t you like me
Why don’t you like yourself?
Should I bend over?
Should I look older just to be put on your shelf?”

-Grace Kelly by Mika


“With life just begun, my sleeping new son
has eyes that roll back in his head
They flutter and dart, he slows down his heart
and pictures a world past his bed
It’s hard to believe
As I watch you breathe
Your mind drifts and weaves

When you dream,
what do you dream about?” – When You Dream by Barenaked Ladies