I’m so tired.
I’m tired of having to go in to work, when “work” now means “fiddling around in the office being a secretary while other people train my dogs and people pretend that I never had anything to do with that side of things because it’s awkward and they don’t know what to say”. I want to just stay home and recuperate from the shock. But if I go on EI while I look for another job, it comes out of my maternity leave. So I had to take the pity offer my work gave me and do work well below my qualifications for the sake of a paycheck.
I’m tired of having to pick and choose what I can eat each day.
I’m tired of feeling hungry, but not hungry, all day long.
I’m tired of smelling crepes in the morning when I wake up. WHERE DOES THAT SMELL COME FROM AND WHY DON’T THEY SHARE WITH ME?
And yes, I’m tired of complaining, too.
But I’m so tired.
Boo. It does get better. (And EI rules are ruthless, but it’ll be over soon.) I actually broke down crying once because I was so hungry… all the time.
It’s true.
I also do work just for a paycheck. But, I try to be positive about the other things in my life and I have to remind myself that my job doesn’t define who I am.
And sometimes I bet you also have a crappy day and need to acknowledge the things in your life that do suck to a sympathetic ear in order to move on and be happy for all the things you do have.
Doing a job that doesn’t use your skills is frustrating, but a common necessity. Doing that job while still at the workplace of your absolute dream job, which used to belong to you, is apt to make one a little more heartsick, especially when it’s such a niche field that grinning and bearing it while you pay your dues and take more classes or something can’t really create any new opportunities for you.
There’s been a whole lot that Carol’s been grateful for around here lately. Looking on the bright side is a great outlook that we can all benefit from reminding ourselves to practice, but as advice, it kind of comes off as “shut up, your concerns don’t matter”. I think it’s pretty ingrained in human nature to want to share our joys AND our burdens with others, small or great.
My job used to define who I am, but definitely no longer!
what’s EI???? help me out here!
franzi
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Employment_Insurance#Canada
thanks! that post suddenly makes a whole lot more sense to me 🙂
franzi
bummer about your job.